11 May Not Letting the Cabinet get Full
Have you ever tried to bottle up your feelings before? I’m sure you have. A lot of the time we think that it’s better to do this than to express the way we feel at the time that we have those emotions. I’ve dealt with this a lot in my life.
To this day I have problems expressing my emotions. It probably has something to do with the fact that growing up my family wasn’t very big on sharing how we felt. I never had a person to model a healthy expression of emotions after, so it doesn’t come naturally to me. Many times I find myself bottling up everything. I don’t want to talk about what’s troubling me when it’s troubling me so I just file it away in a cabinet inside of mind. And then when the next problem comes along, I just add that one up there too. And so on and so forth until it gets full. But the thing is, there’s only so much you can put inside of that cabinet before it starts to overflow. After a while you’re going to run out of room, and that’s when the real problem starts. When that container is full inside of my head, the only thing left for me to do is to take all of those files out so that I can make room for more, but this never looks pretty. Because my head needs relief right away, it’s not good enough to take each one out one by one. They all have to come out at once. And for me that usually manifests itself in tears. And I don’t just shed one or two. It’s an uncontrolled and extended rush of salted water that pours from my eyes and ends with all of my energy being depleted. Or it may also result in me taking my anger out on someone else that doesn’t deserve it. When your cabinet is already full, the smallest thing can cause it to break. So if something happens to you that doesn’t make you very happy, this event might be the catalyst to make the cabinet burst open, and if someone is around when that happens then they’re likely to get stuck in the crossfire. All those files will come rushing out of you and will fall right in their direction, and no one wants that.
Now I know that these reactions are not healthy, which is why I’ve been on a journey of trying to practice to express myself. It’s not easy for me, but it’s something that I know that I need to do if I ever want to get to a place where I stop ending up in a tear-filled hole. I may never reach a time when I can express myself openly 100% of the time, but if I find a way to talk about my issues more often then it will take a little bit longer for that cabinet to get full.
Positive thinker, expressing your feelings is so important. It’s okay to be vulnerable. We all have emotions, and they all deserve to be felt in the moment that they occur. Pushing them to the side only makes things worse for you. You may think that they’re gone for the time being, but they’re always there just lurking beneath the surface waiting to come up. And because your emotions want to be felt, they stay there until they can find a way to come up. So when they see an opening, they take it. And if that opening is big enough, then as many of them will get out as possible before that hole is closed back up once again. You don’t want this to happen because, as we know, nothing good comes from all of your emotions exploding out at once. So you have to start acknowledging your emotions. And when you acknowledge that you’re having them then you also have to be strong enough to let yourself feel them. And once you do that you don’t have to worry about saving that emotion for a later date. It won’t come out in the wrong moment later on down the road because you’ve felt it and dealt with it.
Remember, don’t let your cabinets get full positive thinker. Express your feelings.