03 Feb Taking a Chance
I recently made the decision to go back to school to get another degree. It has been something that I’ve been contemplating doing for awhile now, but I finally decided to go for it. The program that I’m applying to is fairly new, which makes it that much more exciting to possibly be a part of. If I get accepted, I will be a part of a new movement and I will have the opportunity to be on the ground floor for making a difference in this field. As amazing as that is, it is also fairly terrifying.
Because the program is still new and because there aren’t very many people in this field that means that all eyes will be on those very few people who are pioneering this field. That means that if they succeed then they will receive all the praise. On the other hand, if they fail then that also means that all of the attention will be on them. There won’t be anyone else to blame for mistakes made because there will only be a few people to hold that responsibility. That means that if I’m accepted then I will be placed in this small group as well, which means that I will be subject to the possible repercussions of failing in this field. In addition to this, it’s also been awhile since I’ve been in school. I’m a bit out of practice, and there are probably tons of applicants who decided to keep pushing through with their education instead of taking a break. I’ll have to get used to being back in school, which may end up being harder than I imagine it to be. I’m afraid that I won’t be as good as I once was at school and that I’ll end up making a fool of myself. The program that I’m applying to is also in an entirely different country. That means that I won’t have anyone to fall back on if things don’t go well. If I was at home then I would have my friends and family readily available to give me some support, but by choosing to travel half way across the world, I won’t have this support system there physically with me.
But despite all of my fears I still applied. I want to know if I’m good enough to get in, and that desire is greater than the fear I have about actually going back to school. Even if I don’t get in, at least I can say that I tried. For me, trying and failing is a much better option then always wondering what if? What if I had been brave enough to submit that application? What if I could have gotten into the program? What if I could have succeeded there? Knowing is better than not knowing, and the only way you’ll know for sure is if you take a chance.
There are things that I have wanted to do in my life but I failed to do because I was too afraid to take a chance. It’s too late now for me to go back and see what could’ve been, but as I find myself looking back over my life from time to time I always wonder what my life would have been like if I had decided to take that chance.
Positive thinker, if there’s something out there that you’ve always wondered if you could do then go out there and do it (or at least go out there and try to do it). It may be too late for you to go back and do some of the things that you wanted to try to do, but there are still things in your life right now and there will be things in your life in the future that you can decide to take a chance on. Don’t let the fear of failure stop you from taking a chance on yourself. It’s time to stop wondering “what if.” Do what you need to do in order to answer that question. If it ends up working out in your favor then great, but if it doesn’t then at least you’ll know that you tried.
Remember, “In the end, we only regret the chances we didn’t take.”