23 Nov The Sliver of Light
I’m naturally a fairly pessimistic person. I’ve been like this for my entire life. I’m not sure if it’s because of genetics or my upbringing (to be honest it’s probably a combination of both), but for whatever reason, it’s really hard for me to look on the bright side of things. Even when there’s plenty of evidence pointing to a positive outcome, I still can’t help but think that something bad is going to happen. I see the negative in each situation instead of seeing the positive, but I’m actively trying to change that.
The job that I have at the moment doesn’t provide me with a lot of stability. I work at a school with one child, and if my client is not there then I don’t work. On top of this, if he is no longer in need of my services then I can no longer work there at that location. Both of these scenarios have happened (or almost happened) to me since I’ve been with this company.
When I started working with my first school case, he was absent for at least half of the school year. That meant that for at least half of the school year I wasn’t working. By the time summer rolled around, I started looking for new jobs so that I wouldn’t have to go back to working with this kid again. I had bills to pay after all, so not having a steady stream of income was not okay in my book. That being said, I didn’t really find anything that stood out to me in terms of jobs over the summer, so I went back to the same school when the fall term began. I expressed my frustration with some of the staff that I had grown close to the previous year, and each person I talked to told me that I was back there for a reason. Initially, I didn’t want to listen to them. I was mad that I was in the same position as I was the previous school year. It didn’t take long for me, however, to realize that me being angry wouldn’t change my situation. Instead of moping around because I was still working with the same client, I should be trying to see the good in the situation. When I started to do that, my experience at work began to change.
The previous year working with my client brought me a lot of anxiety. He had a short temper, and could explode at a moment’s notice. And a lot of time, his explosions were directed at me. When the new school year started, it was like he was a completely different person. Suddenly, he was sweet to not only me, but to most of the people that he interacted with at school. This made my job a million times easier. In fact, my job became so easy that he didn’t need me anymore. It wasn’t long before my supervisor told me that they would be cutting my hours with him. Once again I was in a position where I could have started thinking only about the negatives of this situation. I could’ve chosen to focus on the fact that I would no longer be working full time, but instead of doing that, I decided to make the most of the time I had left with my client. And by doing this, I was able to stick around the school long enough to get assigned another kid at the same school. If I would’ve left then I wouldn’t’ve been there when my coworker put in her two weeks notice, which would’ve meant that her kid would’ve gone to somebody else. Sticking around and choosing to see the good in my situation worked out in my favor. And if you choose to see the good in your dark moments then you might end up in a place that works to your advantage as well.
Positive thinker, you have to learn to see the good in all situations. There’s always a source of light even in the darkest of nights. You just have to be open enough to find it. And when you do, you can use that sliver to lead you to a place that’s even brighter!